“You’ll never find rainbows if you’re looking down”. Charlie Chaplin.
It is truly unbelieveable to me that it has been one year since I have seen my son’s face. Since I have heard his laughter or his voice in person or on the phone. One Year. A lifetime.
The quote above is a favorite of mine and soon became a favorite of J.W. It says everything. He had so much to be discouraged about…life wasn’t fair for him ( I’m not whining!) but he tried to look up. Of course that is easier said than done but he tried….daily. Some days it was easier to do this than others but I believe the attempt is worth everything. Priceless.
The photo above was taken at 10 months and I LOVE it. As he got older he would roll his eyes at this photo ( he was rolling his eyes at the monogram on the turtleneck which I loved). With that being said, I think he liked the fact that there were always so many photo’s around the house. Memories. So many memories.
This photo was taken in Paris and it captures his personality. You could see the JOY on his face. He loved to travel and I am thankful he got to see so much while on earth.
In a post from last year on my other blog, I mentioned Godwinks. I am so thankful that the Godwinks happen on a fairly regular basis. Sometimes they are delivered by a stranger who doesn’t want me to think she is crazy but has to tell me something. There have been hugs with the message “this is from your son and he wants you to know he loves you mama”. What a gift, what a precious gift.
This is for you Sweet Pea. This has been a very long year for your mama and big daddy dog. Some friends have become strangers and so many strangers have become friends but I believe you know that. Thank you for checking in when I need it the most. O.K, one exception. The photo’s “flown” over to me when I was sleeping…no mistake this was your sense of humor AND timing. I could see you laughing in Heaven because you woke me up! I think you are probably still laughing over that. I think the second photo was you wishing me a happy birthday. The picture said it all.
We love and miss you so much. Both of us will continue to look up, looking for those rainbows which you loved. I know you are watching the rainbows from the other side.
As we celebrate your life, know that you will always be loved and thought of my Sweet Pea. Now I have that song in my head and I think you are probably singing it in Heaven and laughing with joy. Please give Grandma and Grandpa a huge hug from me. I’m so glad you are together.
Love you forever my sweet pea.